Well... I think it's time for me to move on...
It really pains me, I have worked so damn hard in the past few months since I came back... for what? Not much... sure I did get some good comments about the recent changes, but a lot are unhappy about the kerbstones, and now, the tarmac isnt pleasing everyone or so it seems.. I keep on hearing people still using the 0.97n version...
So I guess I will stop there, and let you use whatever version you wish.
I can't remember who, but someone mentioned X-Motor Racing last week, and I had given it a try, and althought I didn't liked what I initially saw, there was only 1 car/1 track, hard to judge a software with seeing so little. The person assured me it was better than it looked in the demo. The features list seemed interesting enough.
This morning, after checking out the thread here for the X times, without any new things added, I emailed the guy behind XMR and asked him if he would grant me a license to XMR in exchange of Nord. He was kind enough to agree, so I will start the work soon on it. I feel I might have more appreciation over there than I get now.
I understand I cannot please everyone, but honestly, it's painful to put in as much as 15 hours per day and all I hear is complaints. When I had complaints before, I didn't mind so much, because I knew I was mostly wrong.
But with the 1.50-1.65 updates, only the kerbstones could have deserved a thumbs down... people talking about color balance and stuff, I didnt changed any grass textures, they are probably only mapped a little different size, that is all... and are 2k instead of 4k... I havent touched the color... so it could as well come from the new HDR code. Anyway...
So what do you want me to do, you guys are saying you prefer a version that I made a while ago... and I won't continue to involve my full self to make only a handful happy.
Since I don't do this for money, I must do it for a reason, and this reason is appreciation. And I havent gotten much for the 1.65 update which, to my taste, is the best release I ever made. So pick whatever version you enjoy the most and... well nothing! Race it!
On a side note, we had a little financial break with the tax return, but its already long gone, not that it was that much. But we have so little anyway. I never asked for donations, other than when I needed to buy something to move forward and I couldnt. I always have been very grateful to everything you sent me.
I haven't made millions, nor thousands either.. I have gotten a new mb, cpu, ram, and I was able to buy the textures I used along with the scripts, plugins as well.. I never profited from any of this. Since my come back at 1.5, I have received 2 donations. 1 for the 1.5 update, and another from a different person for the 1.6 update... that is all. As I said, I'm not expecting much, but I dunno... before I was used to get at least 1 every week or two, enough to keep me going when the going get tougher... I have moved Nord forward like 5x in between the 0.97n and 1.65... in my book. So much as changed, I nearly touched and redone most things.
Anyway, I'm not complaining, I just find it hard to accept.
If anything, out of this, I wanted to get a job somewhere. Ideally for ISI, but I don't think it will ever happen anyway. I know I'm not the most social person in real life, when I can't think before speaking, so I would perform best in a dungeon, locked away from others, like Steve Jobs did at Atari I believe? I relate quite a bit to that guy actually, even tho I'm not really an Apple fan.
So if you are curious to see how it goes on XMR, feel free to come over! I'm out guys, it's been mostly an awesomely fun run, except for the past few weeks.